One month (and a few days) later…

Thank you so much for the well wishes. So sorry it took me so long to get on here and share our birth story. But the truth of the matter it’s because it took me this long to accept it the aftermath. You see, I developed pre-eclampsia during birth, can you believe it? And I still have it now. And let me tell you, it’s the pits. Post-postpartum pre-eclampsia exists and you should make sure to keep vigilant of your blood pressure after the birth. Thank goodness my OB stayed so on top of me.

So yeah, I have this thing and I’m getting treated for it and I really hope it goes away. Five weeks on and it’s still hanging on so I’m still on hypertension pills. And it sucks. They can sometimes make you feel dizzy and just plain awful.

As for the birth? Well, it’s a blur for me now. I can sum it up like this: I went into early labor on my due date 3/4, started active labor on 3/6, my water broke at 3AM on 3/7, I was fully dilated later that afternoon, I pushed for 4 hours (after 2 hours my OB wanted to do a c-section but I insisted on trying again) with no progress made, baby’s heartbeat was acting up so we finally decided to go for the c-section. Little did we know an infection had started to settle in (we learned this after the placenta was studied at in the lab) but luckily neither of us got an infection. So the c-section was truly necessary but I still feel robbed of my vaginal birth. I was so close. Sadly Ollie just wasn’t positioned right. Oh well. I accept what happened. If I don’t, I’ll go nuts!

I stayed really positive during and right after the birth. But it’s the pre-eclampsia that has made me quite cranky these days. I recovered from the surgery quite well. I was walking right after I got out of the recovery room. I made laps around the hospital while I was there. And my blood pressure was normal until about six days later. A visit with the OB confirmed that I had hypertension and needed to be medicated. Bugger.

But I am holding out that I will be back to my healthy chubby self in no time. Well, hopefully less chubby self. I’m down 2.4 pounds from when I got pregnant and I hope to continue to lose weight. It’s for my health, y’all. I wish it was for vanity’s sake but it’s not. I really want to start running again and hope that’ll be possible in the months to come.

As for Ollie, aka Chexie, he’s the best thing ever. I have truly fallen in love with this little one.

One Month Old

One Month Old

He is so darn expressive. I have a ball chatting with him and seeing the various faces he pulls. He cracks me up! He’s not too fond of my singing voice…

You call that singing?

You call that singing?

I’m really enjoying motherhood. The sleepless nights were hard the first week but you do get used to the lack of sleep. But don’t get me wrong, I still would prefer to have my 8 hours of sleep back. One day… He’s been fussy lately but he’s been less so these last few days. Thank goodness for gas drops!

Well, that’s all for now. I am off to pack up his newborn clothes. *Sniff, sniff* Babies grow far too quickly!


20 thoughts on “One month (and a few days) later…

  1. I’m so sorry you didn’t get the birth experience you wanted! When I realized you were in the hospital for 4 days, I knew you must have had a C-section. Your birth story sounds so much like my first one. I never went into natural labor with my son, though. I fell 5 days after my due date and was induced. After 11 hours of labor (I got the epidural — pitocin contractions are freaking awful!), he wasn’t descending and was having large late decals with contractions, so I had a C-section. Far from the unmedicated, vaginal delivery I wanted! But, there is hope! My second was successfully born by VBAC, and I hope to deliver vaginally again with #3. One C-section does not doom you to C-sections ever after! Still, it’s so important to know that even the best laid plans don’t guarantee you’ll get the birth experience you want.

    And I hope the preeclampsia resolves! I have high blood pressure also (it’s genetic), and have been on medication for almost 9 years now (man, that makes me sound old!). Hope it’s a temporary thing for you!

    Ollie’s a doll! I love seeing all your photos on Instagram. He has such great expressions! Glad you’re back!

    • Your experience really gives me hope if we decide to have another baby. So does the fact that you are active even though you have hypertension. This sounds silly but I wasn’t sure if it was possible.

      • It’s definitely possible! Once you adjust to your meds, you’ll probably feel more like being active, and staying active will really help keep your blood pressure in check. I was doomed to have high blood pressure. Both my parents do, and my dad’s is very high, and so did grandparents, etc. The only thing I’ve been instructed not to do is stuff like step aerobics and heavy weight lifting since those tend to spike blood pressure (like I’d do those anyway). But basic strength training, cardio, yoga, Pilates, etc — it’s totally possible and will help keep the BP in check!

        The recommendations on VBACs were changed a couple of years ago, too. Now the official recommendation is that every woman who wants to try should be allowed, so long as there aren’t extenuating circumstances that make it dangerous, like certain medical conditions. However, statistically the chances of being successful are much higher if your OB is supportive of VBACs. Mine really is and didn’t even blink when I said I wanted to do one. And it was smooth sailing with #2! If you have another, I hope it’s the same for you!

  2. Awww, I’m sorry to hear you had preeclampsia and that you’re still struggling. I did not realise it had been difficult for you. Birth is such a momentous occasion so it is not surprising that you’ll want to dwell a bit on not having the experience you wanted. I hope you can work through it and reconcile it all. Are you recovering physically from the surgery?

  3. Oh Mela, I’m sorry it didn’t go as you wanted, and that you’re still struggling with the BP. I hope that resolves quickly. You have such a beautiful little boy, and I am loving seeing all the pics and his expressions! Thanks for being so open on this blog and for sharing your experience.

  4. He is super-cute! Congrats on his arrival! I relate a lot to your birth experience. My first baby was an emergency c-section (after 44 hours of labour- which was induced at 42 weeks). I made it to the pushing stage and 10cm… then my body gave out and my baby’s heart rate dropped dramatically. 3 minutes later I was out and in surgery. Not being conscious when he was born was heart wrenching for me. I was scared it would all happen again this time around, but I literally spent less than 4.5 hours in the delivery ward before she was born and got the VBAC I was hoping for. I know that my c-section was for the best and that it saved my baby. I am very glad you are focusing on the positives- it helps. And sorry you are having a hard recovery… you are doing all you can and your baby is perfect, so now just for your bp to go down so you can fully enjoy this time 🙂 All the best!

  5. Congratulations on bringing your little guy into the world!!! It sucks to not get the birth you want, but I’m glad your recovery went well. I didn’t know that pre-ecclampsia could continue like that- good to know and keep tabs on it so you can be healthy and safe 🙂 Ollie is gorgeous, so happy for you!!!

  6. He’s a cutie, and obviously has lots from mom’s looks! You and I both got a much different birth experience than we prepared for. I’m glad you took it like a big girl- I didn’t and am still not ready to deal with it, although I am convinced it was absolutely justified and necessary. We have our beautiful March babies, and for that we are sooo lucky!

    • I never once thought a c-section was in my future so I know why it’s hard to come to terms with.

      Yes. We are very fortunate to have our lovely March babies.

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